An Artistic Journey

I HAVE FREAKING HAD IT!

know, I shouldn’t have had expected people to treat me like how I treated them.

But I shouldn’t have treated people like how they expect me to treat them as well.

But if you don’t know how to be a good friend, then don’t expect me to be one.

If you don’t know how to respect a friendship, then don’t expect me to respect yours as well.

Right now, I’m only looking for friends who would lend a shoulder for me to cry on.

Not the ones who would borrow my shoulder but then when it’s my turn would just leave me to deal with it all alone.

I might have my weaknesses when it comes to “being there for a friend”, but I’m not stupid either.

So walk away while you can.

Before I turn around and bitch slap you while I can.

Yes, I can be a b*tch too sometimes. So what?

It’s people like you who made me this way.

So move along now and get the heck out of my life!

Have you ever go the extra miles just to adhere to the friendship rule: “That’s what friends are for?”

But in the end that particular act left you feeling a little… betrayed?

Because when you needed help your friends just wouldn’t go the extra mile like you did?

Not that you expect anything in return for whatever favor that you have done for them. But, you just want them to appreciate relationship like you do and adhere to the same rule because well, that’s what friends are for, right?

I have. Almost all the time.

Sometimes, it happens when I least expect it to and from people whom I least expect to do it.

Which got me to thinking, is there anymore genuine friendship left in this world?

Or is everything now just a fake?

Is friendship just another prototype for people to experiment on and when they feel that person is unsuited to be their friend, they just turn their back against them?

Is friendship just another imitation to people in life?

What say you?

Greetings!

Yep, I’m in a cheery mood even though it’s Monday.

And why is that? Because one, the boss is out. Two, it’s the holidays and I’m going home soon!

Yippie yay! After 3 weeks without my dearest kitten and home cooked food. Finally.

Ugh, I miss home so bad; I miss my mum, my kitty.

So, I’m slacking again. I hate Fireworks. I prefer Illustrator. I got pissed coz I just can’t get the curves right as usual so I decided to take a break by blogging. Ah~ just like the good ol’ days. Haha. Sorry, talking crap again.

Guess what? I bought that bag I was talking about the other day and….. I got it for RM43! Even cheaper! I kinda got lucky during shopping this time. Maybe because I shop at the right time. It’s almost CNY and almost every shop is having a sale. Well, now I know where I can get nice bags at a reasonable price.

I also bought a new long necklace that I’ve always wanted. I’ll post up the pics later when I’m back in campus aight?

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On another note, I had a heart talk with one of my best friend yesterday and I finally got to say what I’ve always wanted to say. I’m actually really happy that we had that talk (maybe that’s why I’m in a cheerful mood today?). It sort of clears things out and it made me feel much better and we both now understand each other more. I just hope that I’ll be able to put aside our differences and what has happened will not happen again. Though I’m still hurt by what has happened, but I guess the pain has lessened now and I can talk to her again without feeling a little paranoid and a little insecure. It’s nice that way coz I really miss talking to her.

Well, I guess that’s it for now.

Toodloo!

Yours truly,

Nanie