An Artistic Journey

Fallen - Sarah McLachlan

Fallen by Sarah McLachlan

Heaven bent to take my hand
And lead me through the fire
Be the long awaited answer
To a long and painful fight

Truth be told I’ve tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear

Though I’ve tried, I’ve fallen…
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don’t come round here
And tell me I told you so…

We all begin with good intent
Love was raw and young
We believed that we could change ourselves
The past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
The lonely light of morning
The wound that would not heal
It’s the bitter taste of losing everything
That I have held so dear.

I’ve fallen…
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don’t come round here
And tell me I told you so…

Heaven bent to take my hand
Nowhere left to turn
I’m lost to those I thought were friends
To everyone I know
Oh they turned their heads embarrassed
Pretend that they don’t see
But it’s one missed step
You’ll slip before you know it
And there doesn’t seem a way to be redeemed

Though I’ve tried, I’ve fallen…
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know
So don’t come round here
And tell me I told you so…

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The song explain of how I’m feeling right now.

I broke a promise that I made to myself a long time ago.

And now…

Truth be told I’ve tried my best
But somewhere along the way
I got caught up in all there was to offer
And the cost was so much more than I could bear

…We believed that we could change ourselves
The past could be undone
But we carry on our backs the burden
Time always reveals
The lonely light of morning
The wound that would not heal…

…But it’s one missed step
You’ll slip before you know it
And there doesn’t seem a way to be redeemed

Though I’ve tried, I’ve fallen…
I have sunk so low
I have messed up
Better I should know…

Yes. I screwed up.

Who the hell breaks a promise they made to themselves?

Wasn’t the whole point of doing that was to change?

Wasn’t the whole point of it was to learn from experience?

I f*cking hate myself right now.

You.

Disgust.

Me, Nanie.

I HAVE FREAKING HAD IT!

know, I shouldn’t have had expected people to treat me like how I treated them.

But I shouldn’t have treated people like how they expect me to treat them as well.

But if you don’t know how to be a good friend, then don’t expect me to be one.

If you don’t know how to respect a friendship, then don’t expect me to respect yours as well.

Right now, I’m only looking for friends who would lend a shoulder for me to cry on.

Not the ones who would borrow my shoulder but then when it’s my turn would just leave me to deal with it all alone.

I might have my weaknesses when it comes to “being there for a friend”, but I’m not stupid either.

So walk away while you can.

Before I turn around and bitch slap you while I can.

Yes, I can be a b*tch too sometimes. So what?

It’s people like you who made me this way.

So move along now and get the heck out of my life!

Why do they have to change the storyline in the synopsis?

When the original story is actually that Bella is the one who wants to go and live with Charlie?

Well.. that’s what happens when you turn a book into a movie…

No, being a Twilight fan who almost always talks about Twilight nowadays, I haven’t had the time to watch it yet.

I’m watching it this coming Thursday or Friday hopefully.

Let’s just hope the movie is just as damn good as the book.

And I’m pretty snappy when it comes to Twilight movies right now.

So, I would really appreciate it if you don’t come rubbing it on my face that you’ve watched it and I haven’t.

Kepish?

And don’t say I didn’t warn ya.

I’m pretty busy at the mo’ so all I can do is just give a teensy update every now and then.

I’m sorry.

Alright.

Gotta continue work.

Laters~